It's the soul that needs a surgery

Is it sad that I am hoping with all of the changes in my life with food and getting a puppy that this will help me get pregnant. 

It has been a year since I had laparoscopy surgery. When I first had surgery, I thought that was the only thing I would need to change in order to have a baby, but then I went to counseling and realized I had so much Shame, Guilt, Pain, and Hurt contained inside that it was going to take more than just surgery. There is a lyric from Beyonce that popped in my head while writing this. The song is called Pretty Hurts and she sings, "It's the Soul that needs the Surgery". I believe that without a doubt now. 

"You're tryna fix something
But you can't fix what you can't see
It's the soul that needs a surgery

Ain't got no doctor, or pill that can take the pain away
The pain's inside, and nobody frees you from your body
It's the soul, it's the soul that needs surgery
It's my soul that needs surgery"

--Pretty Hurts, Beyonce 

Listen here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LXXQLa-5n5w

I hope this doesn't come off as though I am ungrateful because I am very thankful for all of the lessons and beautiful things that are here, and to come. I am also so excited to be a Mother. I know that sounds crazy because Benji is just a puppy, but he is also a fur baby that needs love and I have so much to give. The official date we pick him up is on September 25th, and I feel like it cannot come soon enough. I already have essentials and things that I thought would be sweet for him. 

I know I am meant to be a Mother, and I know I will always work hard to be a good one. I also know it is not up to my timing of when it will happen, so as I lessen the control I attempt to have over it. I hope to invite my future baby into our world when it is their time to join us. In the meantime, I am continuing to work on my soul, nutrition, physical, emotional state. Basically body, mind, soul, and spirit. 

This ties into my post on Instagram, @thebriepod:

I used to think self-care was two-dimensional. You have Physical + Mental health, but I was missing the elements of your heart and spirit. Below are the 4 key dimensions of Self Care. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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🌿Physical (the body) – to live, move, and breath⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
Physical self-care involves ensuring an overall healthy lifestyle that includes eating healthy, drinking lots of water, and getting plenty of exercises. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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🌿 Emotional (heart) – to love, care, and be in a relationship with yourself and others⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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🌿Pyschological (the mind) – to learn, think and grow⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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🌿 Spiritual (the spirit) – to connect with essence, purpose, and meaning⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
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Which key dimensions have you neglected lately? I know for me it has been my body and mind.

Xoxo,

Brie