I started a few consultations with counselor's today.
You might be thinking, why am I sharing something so personal. I am sharing this because our societal norms are expiring. What has been acceptable and not acceptable to discuss needs to evolve. I bring to light my behind-the-scenes to help spread awareness. Awareness of Endometriosis, IBS, Mental Health, and Anxiety. I know I'm not alone and I want to help people that may be suffering in silence. It took me 10+ years to finally get a formal diagnosis.
I am looking for a counselor because endometriosis/IBS has taken over my life in many ways, it is not just physical pain. It can be emotionally draining. Every day, I try to better myself than the day before in all aspects of life. In my last blog post, I told you that I neglected my health, but I wasn't just talking about my physical health. I am tired of being a bully to myself and having my inner me try to convince me that:
1. I am a failure for not being able to have children in this present moment.
2. I am a failure as a wife because IBS + Endo has reclusive moments in our relationship.
3. I am afraid to eat because I don't want to be in pain. -- the list goes on...
Since starting my podcast, I have wanted to spread awareness, help entrepreneurs, and make mental health/self care a priority. For myself, I decided to get a fitness trainer to hopefully bring the physical pain down, I also needed help with my food intake, because I know if I want to be healthy and get the opportunity to bear children, then I need to eat properly. I am looking for a counselor so, I can shift my mindset on food and the reclusive side of my relationships.
I don't share any of this for pity, I share this purely to help you see, you are not alone and we will fight our internal battles together.
Brie (Bri) (Bre)